La vida es sueño...

Desde hace tiempo, este blog se convirtió solo en un lugar para expresar mis estados de ánimo, plasmar todo aquello que me recordaba a ti, poner alguna reflexión absurda, ver la evolución de mis sentimientos, de mis ideas.... Queria buscar un espacio en el que no olvidarte, donde recordar lo que hice, lo que perdi y que me recordara constantemente por lo que lo lucho. Bueno, es hora de dejar de luchar y entender que como dijo el poeta, "la vida es sueño, y los sueños, sueños son". 


Pero este blog lo hice para ti, para que el dia que estuviera preparado, el dia que pudiera recuperarte pudieras ver un poco la cantidad de tonterías que llevo haciendo desde que te perdí, bueno, aquí dejo escrita la respuesta de mi destino (yo siempre tan épico no?), y mi respuesta es que, me rindo, aquí termina el ultimo esfuerzo de mi vida por recuperar mi sueño, y si alguna vez tiene que llegar, yo no pienso volver a intentarlo. Podría decirte mil cosas de lo que ha pasado estos ultimos dos meses, pero creo que es mejor dejarlo así.

Te deseo lo mejor que no es mas que lo que te mereces.



Aqui acaba mi blog.



"Dear Rafa,

Your email is full of such strong emotions.  I am sorry we were not able to talk over Christmas break.  I kept my computer on with Skype running in order to connect but somehow we always missed each other.

We had such a wonderful conversation and I was looking forward to our next one. 

This is all very hard...for both of us.  I read your words and I think I have been hoping and waiting for a grand gesture since I left Spain.  I knew it would take time for you to find yourself and start working on your internal growth and making the decision to be whole.  And as I read these words, so many emotions started welling up inside of me.  I had been trying to get over you while also waiting for you at the same time.  I know it is an oxymoron but that is what was happening.  There were so many uncertainties but I thought...maybe...

I thought that if certain things happened and certain pasos were made that we may have another chance.  When we spoke I honestly thought we were taking the first step towards trying again...that we had a long way to go but that we could try....  I am so sorry.  But something has changed since we spoke.  And that is part of the reason I wanted to talk to you cara a cara over Skype.  After we spoke, some changes have taken place in my life.  For the first time since you and I were together, I am in a relationship.  I hate to tell you this.  I don't want to hurt you.  

I loved talking with you...it was so fuerte but it felt so good...and I was thinking already about the future and possibilities.  To be honest, since we started emailing back and forth, I had started daydreaming about seeing you again...even thinking how it would be easier to try and start over again as I am now living in a Spanish speaking country. But I should not even be writing these words to you.  It is not fair.  I feel that I should not be sharing all of these feelings I have been having.  But I don't know what the best way is to handle this.

 I am sorry Rafa.  It has been a long time and it happened unexpectedly but it has happened.  

I know we both had ideas of possibilities but the timing is off but maybe it is the best for both of us.  We will just have to wait and see what the future holds for us.  

The good thing is that you are in a very good place.  You are building your career, you work with people you enjoy, you are by the water, have a beautiful dog, are loved by so many, and have a great future ahead of you.  

I will always carry you in my heart.  I love you dearly and wish only the best for you.

Sending you a big hug,

Danni"